"Birth" 16x 20 Acrylic on Canvas: Art
The canvas forces honesty in a way that writing simply can't now. I sketch and paint mostly freestyle, allowing my movements no forced control or effort. I just let it all out. So when I painted this some months ago, I looked at the canvas with feelings of recognition. This is how I see myself inside once every nuance and layer is stripped away. It's been hard to think of myself as beautiful throughout my life. My upbringing gave me plenty of opportunities to focus only on my negative atttributes, which were always harped on to no end.
But here, I found that I was able to finally admit to myself that inside, I'm beautiful, worthy and competent. That's a fantastic realization that didn't require a therapy session at $250 an hour.